Ding Dong..............

For the past 18 months I've tried to hold it together. I was lied to, cheated on, and left in serious debt. At this point in time, I still don't know how I'm gonna bounce back financially. Despite all the emotional ups & downs and all the stress of the last 18 months, I now feel like a HUGE boulder has been lifted from my shoulders. I AM FINALLY DIVORCED! :)

I wasn't sure how I would feel when my divorce became final. "CJ" was a person I trusted and loved with all my heart. His actions truly shattered me. I was unclear if I was going to break down once the divorce was final. This is my second divorce in 10 years. Not a real sporty track record. Despite the things that I went through with "CJ", I never became an "evil" chick. I wasn't trying to screw him over in the divorce. When I divorced my first husband, I didn't take a dime from him. I left the marriage with the things I came in with. With this marriage, all the marital debt was in my name. I moved out of my house truly believing that "CJ" wouldn't screw me over monetarily. HA! I got totally screwed! I lost my house, my credit, my Wii........everything! Even though I was left six feet in a hole , I only asked the EX for a bit of money. I just needed enough to pay back some relatives and file for bankruptcy. Truly, despite all my anger and hurt, I wasn't trying to screw over "CJ." Sadly, not all "men" are men. He refused to be accountable and responsible for his part in our marital debt. Not cool. Our divorce ended up taking months longer because of "CJ's" inablity to accept responsiblity for his actions.

Last Tuesday, August 3, I became FREE! Our divorce became final. I cannot lie.....I've smiled more in the past week than I have in the last year. I'm still stressed about cash and I'm still broke as hell, but I'm no longer connected to "CJ" and that has made me feel unreal. I thought after the divorce was final, I might feel a bit of loss. I assumed a sense of saddness would take over. Didn't happen. I have felt stronger since last Tuesday. I'm more confident and feel more alive than I have in a very long time. Hell, I lost 250lbs of dead weight and unhappiness.......that would make any girl feel light and airy! "Ding Dong The Dumbass Is Gone!" I couldn't be more thrilled!! I believe BitterMel will be better than ever!