2010: The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly

Welcome to 2011! The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly all happened in 2010. It was definitely an interesting ride. Kinda like a roller coaster. Too bad roller coasters make me hurl!

Let's start off with The UGLY. "CJ" aka Captain Jackass and I FINALLY divorced in August. It took just under 3 years to get rid of him. I settled with him just to end all of the drama. Also to end the expensive attorney's fees! After being left about $300,000 in debt, having my credit ruined, having my house foreclosed on, and dealing with numerous creditors, I walked out of the court house with "CJ" owing me $5000. Really? It took almost 3 years for THAT?! Total buzzkill. That being said he still OWES me half that money. I have no doubt that collecting the rest of the money he owes me will be a major pain in my ass. No shock there. Despite the emotional and financial hits, I'm still a very lucky girl. Those of you who are familiar with "CJ" know what I mean. Getting rid of him was SO worth all the stress and financial loss. I'm alive, I have a loving family, and some amazing friends.

Now for the BAD. By BAD I mean stuff that sucks. Nothing in my life is truly bad.....I have a place to live, a job, clothes to wear, and food to eat. My "Bad" is just stuff that's annoying and a pain. Nothing too major. My first bit of bad is my weight. I went from very to skinny to chubby in 2010. Thyroid issues and my steady dating of "Ben & Jerry" along with not working out left me with some extra poundage. Not the worst thing in the world but a pain. That being said, it's totally my fault. I ate ice cream & became a bit lazy. I have no one to blame but myself.....I get it. Now I CAN'T GET INTO most of my clothes. OY! Working on it.

In 2010 I had some friendships change. I guess this isn't really a BAD thing just a bit sad. It's surprising when people aren't who they portray themselves to be. My definition of a friend is a person that is loyal, honest, loving, and true. I've had many of the same girlfriends for 20 years. Despite the different paths we've all chosen in life, we are still there for each other. As I get older, I realize I don't want or have time for fake or jealous people. If someone in your life tries to belittle you or tries to control you, then they are not a friend. I had a husband that did that........don't need a friend like that. I would rather spend time alone than with someone who doesn't add joy and happiness to my life.

Totally bad and painful in 2010 was my shoulder surgery. Ahhh....old age. Ouch! When the doc went in to fix it, he realized there was more damage than he originally thought. It still hurts but I'm doing well. I was released from PT a month after surgery so I'm rockin' towards recovery!

There are lots of GOOD things that occured in 2010. The most amazing thing is that I am DRAMA-FREE! Holy Hell........what a change! Since the split from "CJ" over 2 years ago, I have attended counsling sessions. Seeing someone every few weeks and discussing my problems & feelings has helped me get over all the emotional trauma "CJ" left me with. It also helped me stay off the show "Snapped." :) After years of catering to someone else, I am now doing what I want to do. I have a better understanding of the person I am and what I want out of life. I'm also aware of what I DON'T want out of life! It's quite an interesting change for me to be "normal."

My boyfriend is one of the best things that happened in 2010. Yeah.......I said boyfriend. He is one of the reasons I am a bit less "bitter." I've known "Smiles" for about 13 years. He's a big fella.....6'3, 280lbs...I like the big boys. Despite his large stature, he is THE kindest man I know. I laugh and smile constantly when I'm with him. I get butterflies when I hear his voice or think of him. I'm happy. Just plain happy. It's been a VERY long time since I was happy. AND I deserve it damnit!

So there ya go.......The GOOD, The BAD, and The UGLY. Looking back at 2010, the good outweighed the bad and the ugly. Hell, even the ugly turned out pretty good! Divorce can be a wonderful thing.

I'm hoping 2011 will bring luck and some changes my way. I think it's time for me to explore some other options in life. Fingers crossed things fall into place for me this year.

I'm not big on New Year's Resolutions BUT I will say this: 2011 WILL BE MARRIAGE FREE!!!! JUST when ya thought the bitterness was gone............. :)

Hope 2011 rocks for you!